seriously....

Is this the cutest fucking picture of any of my kids ever?? You have to click it to really get a grasp of the cute.


Really- if you're having a bad day- just refer to this page cause you know- how do you not smile at this picture?

covering my nuts

Ok- I'm cheering up, I'm sorry for the cuntastic attitude I've had lately. My pointless period is late, late for what- I have no idea. No sex, no sperm, no TUBES, no problem. Die eggs die!!!!!

I'm having some money struggles right now. No fault but my own really. The kids are out of daycare and e-husband is home watching them and that is supposed to SAVE me money, and it will- once I get caught up from what I couldn't afford to begin with.

And I don't want to borrow money from what I will have later. I just need to create money where there currently is none. I put my school books on half.com and I have some reimbursement stuff to turn in- so I think I will be ok, but it's interesting how my spending habits change when e-husband is around. Take out food and dessert and extra stuff seems so logical. Food I don't usually buy tastes better. I wonder if I'm trying to create an environment or something. Let him know that I'm grateful for him being here. Buy his affection with food.

Yeah, I know how to get to a mans heart. With meat. Fried meat, white meat, deli meat, red meat. All sorts of meat. I've been cooking. Side dishes, vegetables the whole deal. And you know, all that costs money that my salary does not exactly cover. My meals, without him around, consist of a frozen dinner, or a sandwich, or a plate of leftovers from my mom's house. Sometimes waffles or a bowl of cereal.

I would guess that I try to spend less than $5 a day on my own meals. Coffee, frozen lunches and dinners are described above suit me just fine. But when I find myself spending $25-$35 on groceries for one or two meals, well, that dwindles the account faster than I expected. Perhaps I'm just giddy from all the good food and I don't think straight.

I don't ask for much. It's not like I am asking for $54 million for a pair of pants. (I just want to punch this fucken guy.) I just want to be able to eat and pay the bills, in the same week. My mother told me today that her friend is renting a BIG house in Arizona, for $300 less than my newly raised rent in a shitty neighborhood. Yes, cause moving to a new state is always the best way to solve money problems...

On a clear day...

You can see the smog in LA.

It's a gorgeous day in Southern California. Assuming you don't work in Los Angeles.



See that brown haze? That's the smog in LA. But see the blue sky? That's where I live and work. Blue skies. It's supposed to be 83 degrees today. Fucking awesome.



See that 73? That's where I am.

Have a great weekend!!!!!

Frozen juice on skid row

It's supposed to be cold this weekend. The Govenator has called a state of emergency. I can already hear people groaning, but it's not my fault. Here in California, we do our best to control our weather, and when it get out of the 65-85 range, we panic a little bit. People pay good money to come here for the weather, and when it gets out of whack, it makes us look bad.

Not that fruit and homeless people don't matter- because they do. And of course we cannot afford to lose crops, nor do we want people freezing to death on the streets- but to call it a state of emergency seems a bit much. I guess I refer to reserve "states of emergency" for disasters like flooding, earthquakes, and marriage. So who gets called in? The National Guard? -with blankets and heat lamps? Will they light fires and go sweeping through the orange fields like "A Walk in the Clouds"?

VICTORIAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!