No great depression

Yesterday, the e-husband saw me reading Shampoo Planet by the edge of the pool and asked me, "You're still reading that book? What is it about?"

"Well, it's about this guy and...well, fuck- I'm not really sure!"

I read him the inside cover- and told him it's a very Generation X book, you know- about.... um... fuck, I don't know.

Someone help me, I'm half way through it. Is there a plot line that I'm missing? Am I supposed to be acutely aware of his struggles, cause so far- he just seems observant, but not very passionate about anything. Ok, so I see that some mysterious woman is about to enter the picture- so ok, maybe there is something to grasp on to- but I'm half way through, shouldn't I know already?

Maybe I've been too preoccupied to acknowledge my Generation X-edness. Perhaps I'm just somewhat closed off to the ideals that my generation is supposed to care about. Perhaps I am have been too concerned in my adult life with the 12 steps and the Big Book and breast feeding that I never took the time to get a good political point of view or develop a hatred for the government. Maybe I am too self centered to have an emotional opinion on the environment and offshore drilling and stem cell research. Not that I don't have an opinion, or that I don't feel this issues are important, but I have heard friends talking, and having heated debates about these things, causing them to openly abhor those who may oppose their views. I wish that I was that passionate about it so I could at least join in the conversation instead of listen quietly, and nod my head- and more often than I care to admit, ask "what does that mean?"

And if you are one of the few people who have to constantly school me on what the hell you are talking about, I appreciate you never making me feel stupid for not knowing and not being judgmental. It's not that I don't care- but perhaps I am still of the school of thought that in general, society is too selfish to do the things that need to be done to make long term positive changes. Like in the movie Singles, which I did see, once:

People love their cars.

I feel this way about most things- and if you know me, you know that I'm not one to go against the grain and be confrontational. Maybe I am part of the problem, because I don't know what the solutions are. It's not that I don't want to care, I just don't what to care ABOUT!!

Go ahead, kick me out of the generation. It's ok. I probably won't notice.

Our Generation has had no Great war, no Great Depression. Our war is spiritual. Our depression is our lives. ~Chuck Palahniuk

Hey wait, maybe I belong here afterall.....

Just a geek girl

My IT guy, yeah I got a guy- was impressed with my ability to handle some of my computer problems, or at least the fact that I try to fix these things on my own.

He said, "I think you are really just a geek girl."
maybe

"Well, you know, it's kinda hot. But you don't need validation from me."

Um, helloooo.
Here's a crash course about Julie:

Impatient
Dirty minded
More vain than I care to admit
Attention whore

Directions: Tell me that I'm hot and that my tits look great and that you want to screw me.
Tell me often.

Rinse. Repeat.

Why I <3 Geeks

From Wikihow.com:

A geek is someone smart and intellectual. They're usually good with computers and do well in school. Nerds on the other hand, specialize. A nerd can tell you every fact known to man about the topic they specialize in. Nerds are generally somewhat obsessive in one particular area. You might even say they know "way too much" about the topic for any kind of practical application (e.g. memorizing about 300 digits of pi, or obsessive trivia knowledge of Star Trek).Geeks are usually less obsessive but still very knowledgeable in particular domains. Geeks are more associated with intelligence, while nerds are more associated with obsessive knowledge and trivia.

So now we know. I have a few friends that claim to be geeks. Proud ones. Now I know why. Cause they are known to be smart and intellectual, not obsessive and creepy.

I think a lot of the Geeks I know are actually nerds who know the difference, but they can, what's the word... hold back. True nerds simply don't know any better. Too concerned with pi. or Star Trek. Did I mention that I never saw the first Star Trek movie? Sorry.... I only saw the second one, cause the "adulterous bastard" liked it (I was going to call him the "10 inch bastard", but I thought that might be too much info.) So if I say that the second one is my favorite of all the Star Treks, it's cause it's the only one that I saw!! But you see, I can make conversation about it.

I personally love Geeks. They can fix my computer, and have decent conversation- and they are usually smart enough not to make me feel stupid for not knowing everything they know. And well, the geeks...ladies, they want to KNOW things- and they kind of obsess about it until they get it right. They don't like doing things wrong.

They are....ummmmm...thorough.

Amen to that.