Sometimes it seems like my life hasn't changed much, and sometimes I am amazed at how different I feel.
Maybe it's a confidence thing. Perhaps I just FEEL better about myself lately. Perhaps it's about detachment. Things with my husband have really not changed much. I mean, lately (and by lately I mean the last two days) we have been getting along a little better- but I have my doubts at how real that is. And when he gets into his depressed moods, I can't say that I'm OK with it, but I think it bothers me less at that moment. I try not to think of what the rest of my life will be like- because then it feels hopeless and endless, but in general, I can handle it one day at a time.
But I learned to get a life. To hang out with friends, and be social and have fun!! Oh my God, FUN. I almost forgot what FUN is really like. Being around people, and laughing and telling old stories and bad jokes and meeting new people and not even wondering if you fit in, because you just do. And then staying up late and LAUGHING so hard that you almost lose your voice. It's so good to feel alive again.
About Me
- Julie
- Using my 40's as a do-over for my thirties, only smarter. I often mistake the bees and honey reference with the one about free milk and a cow. This might explain my whole life.
1 comment:
My wife goes thru bouts of depressive behavior, and tends to haev a "glass half empty" sorta outlook most of the time. I am the type who assimilates into his surroundings so I tend to pick up her down moods... (which of course is my issue, not hers) So, anyhow,I know how ya feel... It's good when we can keep on keepin' on, have a life, and not let the difficulties of our loved ones bring us down.
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