Old habits

Michael was discharged from the hospital tonight and he dropped off his perscriptions and picked up the boys and I came home and was studying before class. So I was going to pick up his perscriptions before I went to class and I realized that I was late. He asked me, 'do you have time to pick up the perscriptions?'- and I knew that I didnt. I knew that it would make me late for class- and therefore late for my quiz which I do NOT get extra time for.

So I said, "yeah I think so." and I got in the car and left. As I am halfway to the pharmacy I realize that I will NOT be on time, and I knew I would not be on time- and why did I agree to do this. He has a car- he could pick them up?!?!? And I was kicking myself, because I put HIS needs in front of mine. He didn't even ASK me or guilt me into doing this. He asked if I had time, and with that- I volunteered to be late to class and possibly miss my quiz. He didn't even ask me to do this RIGHT NOW, he just asked if I would have time. Had I said no, he probably would have put the kids in the car and done it. But no, I decided that I can do it- because apparently I coddle him without provocation and refuse to put my goals in thier proper place.

You know, at least I recognize it- and perhaps I will be not be so quick to put his needs before my own.