don't ask me why....

I'm haunted today- by this song
and a man who's been gone for far too long....

It's weird how that happens. You keep people in your mind and in your heart- but they just sort of circle the perimeter. They cross your mind when you drive past a certain location, or hear a song on the radio- but as soon as they enter your mind, they are gone again- back to that storage place with the rest of the people you've loved in the past.

Then there's days and I wake up and it's like he's sitting in my living room. Having coffee and patting the seat next to him. Maybe it's just the absence of my mind lately that makes my subconcious pull out the big guns. Throw his memories at my feet and says "Here- kick this around for a while."

The only way to fight it, is to let it be. He won't stay. He proved that.

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In every heart there is a room
A sanctuary safe and strong
To heal the wounds from lovers past
Until a new one comes along

I spoke to you in cautious tones
You answered me with no pretense
And still I feel I said too much
My silence is my self defense

And every time I've held a rose
It seems I only felt the thorns
And so it goes, and so it goes
And so will you soon I suppose

But if my silence made you leave
Then that would be my worst mistake
So I will share this room with you
And you can have this heart to break

And this is why my eyes are closed
It's just as well for all I've seen
And so it goes, and so it goes
And you're the only one who knows

So I would choose to be with you
That's if the choice were mine to make
But you can make decisions too
And you can have this heart to break

-And so it goes, Billy Joel